Writing in role 1

I feel like things are different since i came out, at times i was back in mac yano. I feel that i cant look at the outside the same since ive come out as its so different to what it used to be. Im starving and i havent had much to eat, fella eats in jail ya see and i just feel at times things would be better if i was there. Dont get me wrong i would miss Ma and Pa a hell of alot and the rest of the fambly to, i couldnt do that to them again Ma would be heartbroken i couldnt put her throu that again, it aint fair. 

I need a smoke, i feel week, i havent had a smoke in a hell of a time and it feels so wrong not to be in a cell. I had time to think about the things that have happened in my life and i have no regret on the actions that i have chosen in the pas'. The fambly mean everything to me, and im gon try my hardest to get them through this and i hope they look back and see i was a good man at heart.